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Paradichlorobenzene

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As I lied in bed, I tossed and turned, haven't getting any ounce of sleep yet. My iHome was flashing the time right in front of me, as bright as the sun on a midsummer's day.

I hate rules.

What do I live for? What am I worth?

Questions bounced back and forth, boggling my mind.

I got up, stomping to my closet just mere feet away from the foot of my shrinking bed. Stripping off my pajamas, I then dressed myself in a white sailor uniform shirt, complete with a yellow tie that ran down all the way down my torso, a pair of loose black shorts that went to my knee, a pair of short white socks, a black wristband with a pair of angel wings that fit snuggly on my right wrist, and grabbed my huge headphones that matched my outfit, white with a yellow rim around the part for the ears and the chord being yellow. I sprinted to my iHome and grabbed my iPod, inserting the plug of the headphones in them, tiptoeing down the stairs.

I headed out the door, and before closing the door, I made sure that the emergency key was still safely hidden from a stranger's eyes.

I don't like being held down, and I feel it so much in my house, school… Everywhere I go! I wanted to escape from it all, and so I started to pick up my walking pace, Downtown lying only a few blocks ahead… Even if I knew there was nothing out there for me to reach. I ran out to the night city, forgetting about the past and the future. The mixed smell of smoke, carbon dioxide, leaky trash bags, the many sewers… I was surprised I didn't take a turn back home or throw up all over the sidewalk. It was disgusting. I could hear cars honking, people yelling, and bright lights for late night clubs and bars, with their neon signs, were flashing right in my face; it was the complete and utter chaos and confusion of the shady scene. Being a "kid" and running around the metropolitan area at night was risky, but I couldn't stop these feelings.

I hate being told what to do. I wanted to be a little "evil"…

I grabbed fistfuls of my raven black hair, blending in with the clouded sky. I couldn't think straight at all, and so I just started to run around the city. Without a word, I erased everything out of my mind except for my questions…
I stopped, finding my colorless sneakers getting soaked in the dark blue mixed with gray colored water. I was at the lakefront. A stray cat, a dark grey walked up to me, meowing, curling against my legs, its tail tickling me.

I squatted down and started to run my fingers through its soft fur, standing up on its back.

"Why am I alive? What's my purpose?" I asked it, my eyebrows in a crease going downward, showing anger, jealousy, hate, delusion, and insignificance.

The cat doesn't answer me. It just stared at me with eyes of contempt…! I ran away from the lake, leaving the feline to meow in loneliness.

I took a turn into a local 24 hour coffee shop; I didn't even look at the sign to see which one it is. I ordered a coffee that I couldn't stand to drink; I hated the strong, bitter taste and smell, and my hand felt like it was going to burn off from how hot my beverage was. I looked up at the fogged up sky.

What am I doing right now?

I don't even know that.

In the middle of the metropolis, I started screaming, shouting, singing. I was stared at, but I didn't even care about that. I threw myself on the filthy ground, complete with stale gum that turned black from everyone stepping on it, burned out cigarettes, and scraps of trash and rubbish on it. I scream without knowing the reason why I was…

"Are you satisfied by this, how the way things are right now?!" I yelled up into the sky, hot, wet tears running down my face as I slammed down my coffee cup down on the ground, shaking the small paper cup, spilling a little bit of my paid drink on the sidewalk. "Would everything change in you were torn free from all of these rules?!"

I got up, picking up my coffee and shot daggers with my eyes at the people staring and whispering about me and my deeds. I walked with frustration in my eyes, as if my eyes were dyed a deep red of insanity.

Yes, I'd like to spill out my guts, my thoughts, my emotions out on someone, anyone… I wield "justice" in a fight against "evil"… so I thought! With my "justice", my "stress" melts away like a Popsicle lying out in the sun…

No one realizes our silly, idiotic acts!

I ended up at the lakeside again, staring out far into the large body of water…

And then I realized, everything I do is all out of hypocrisy.

What… just what exactly is my life worth…?

The stray cat from earlier… met its drenched demise.

I threw the emptied coffee cup into the beach's garbage can, and I looked up at the now darker sky…

What am I doing with myself this moment?

I don't even know that…

… I don't know ANYTHING, anymore…

And so, I heard you laughing at me in my mind, pointing directly at me…

And so I pushed "you", the imaginary person in front of me away… I swatted and lashed out at "you" in front of me…

"You know I'm right, and you know you're wrong!" I yelled again, my throat dry and scalding, and this time, with no one around me at all, my anger and irritation built in me was so thick that my voice was ear-piercing from my flooding emotions; my feet were starting to dig in the gray, slightly soggy sand below me. I was wrapped in emptiness, wrapped in it until I fade away… until I disappear. "So come on, let's sing and dance! Let's laugh, let's covet! You… and me… and everything… Let's all go mad, and let's fall asleep…" I whispered with a softer tone of voice as I dropped to my knees, staking them subterranean…

"Until we all fall apart…"
This was an English assignment, I had to listen to a song and describe a scene. Though it only had to be a paragraph, I outdid myself, and made a whole short story.

I'm just going to copy and paste one of the paragraphs for the paper. XD;;

Yes, this is me in Len's place. Raven black hair? xD

Enjoy~

Paradichlorobenzene – Originally sung by Len Kagamine (Chorus: Rin Kagamine), Composed by OWATA-P (Garuna)
Story written by me.
Enjoy, and please do not steal.

<<EDIT>>
HAAAAAH, I GOT EXTRA POINTS FROM THIS. =w=
She wrote that I went through a huge transformation on how I wrote things last year, to what I just gave her (she was on a maternity leave through half of the school year, and this was the first paper we turned in for her), and she also said this is one of the greatest essays/stories she's ever read. =u=bb She finally said that she can't wait to read more stories from me. \o/
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TetoXTed-FANGIRL's avatar
hehe, reading this while listening to the song and loving every minute of it. of each.